Mother's Day has usually been a day of dread for me. Reason being is a long story, which I'd rather not go into on this blog. However, yesterday was a much different Mother's Day.
For the first time, I wasn't focused on my lack of relationship with my mother, but on the relationship I have with the 3 wonderful kids that live with me.
I've enjoyed the last year of being a "mom." I've definitely learned a lot. It's had its ups and downs. I've learned to love more than I ever thought imaginable.
Ups: lots of laughing and shouting daily around the house, hugs and kisses and I love yous before bedtime, more laughing, having a child officially become a teenager, living with a sweet teenager, Jackie losing her first teeth, all three learning to speak English, family nights out to eat........
Downs: Jackie's almost dying of AIDS, Jackie being diagnosed with cancer, chemotherapy, Jackie's mom taking her, Yosam adjusting to a new home......
Throughout all the ups and downs, I've been able to see many blessings. I've never regretted taking in any one of the three children and know that if I had refused on any of them, it would have been me that missed out. It's been a far greater blessing to me to have each one of them that I could ever be to them.
2 comments:
I'm so glad you got to see the other side of Mother's Day!
Mother's Day is always bittersweet for me. On the one hand, my own mom & I had many struggles as I was growing up. Then I became a mom myself and determined that I would love my kids unconditionally. So in a weird twisted way, my own mother's mistreatment of us kids caused me to strive to be a GOOD mom to my own. Have I succeeded? Well one of mine is all grown, and the other one is getting there. Guess you'd have to ask them someday whether I succeeded as a good mom. hee,hee,hee
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